We are just guys in LOOKING

I know it is seriously sick to type a TV show review in English on Douban. But I can’t help feeling weird when talking about gay stuff this long in Chinese on the Internet. Maybe I’m not “pervert” enough. That’s just my problem.

I don’t know whether you feel it or not. However, the character Patrick brings me so many inspirations about my life, for example the way I make friends, the way I have relationships and the way I handle my family affairs. Maybe it is all because we have so many things in common. We both came from small town to the big city for our dreams and better life. In cities like LA, Peking, Shanghai, and even Canton, there are so many temptations. Through hard work, we managed to have a sort of comfortable life with a job which we are good at. Then we make friends – close friends, some just for fun, some for love and affection. Then you start to search for the true love of our standards. We keep LOOKING and LOOKING, till we are lost in the crowd, in the dim street light, in some drunk arms, in another lonely night. When you look back, you can see it is typical white collar gay life.

I tell my friends that I feel so strong about the show, as if it’s showing my life to me. It’s not like some kind of shitty chicken soup for the soul. However, it brought me in front of the mirror to make me able to watch my life again. It made me realized that I wasn't special; I was just a guy in LOOKING and so are many of my friends in the concrete forests.

Even though there are plenty of Gay Spots downtown, it’s still not easy for people like us to find lovers, because we don’t do things out of “the line”. Once we meet a guy of “another world”, like Richie, we just got addicted to the experiences and thoughts so much that we think we are madly in love. But are we? It might be right. It might be wrong.

After all, since none of my relationships last longer than six months, I may not be the right person to talk about love. I just want to give best wishes for me and my friends, for the people who deserve a wonderful life.

Good night.

2014.3.14
In Canton