Nothing she wanted for me happened,I spent all my life alone

My dear saul,
It breaks my heart to write this letter.
I've known since you're a young man that you've been keeping the secret.
But I know there is a reason.
At first you probably didn't even want to admit it to yourself.
And I never thought that I could be the one to ask you.
So now I could only hope that you had a beautiful life.
Someone to shared with even if you didn't share that part with me.
You deserve all the happiness in the world.
my saul
I trust you've found it.

Love
                 MOM