Quinn-Carrie--Yours-for-Always

Carrie,

I guess I'm done, and we never happened. I'm not one for words but they coming now.I don't believe in fate or destiny or horoscopes,but I can't say I'm surprised things turns out this way.I always felt there was something kind of pulling me to darkness.Does that make sense?But I wasn't allowed a real life or a real love.That was for normal people.With you, I thought,"Ah, maybe, just maybe,"But I know now that was a false glimmer.I'm used to these--they happened all the time in the desert--but this one got to me.

And here is the thing, this death, the end of me,is exactly what should have happened.I wanted the darkness. I fucking asked for it.It has me now.So don't put a star on the wall for me.Don't say some dump speech.Just think of me as a light on the highlands, a beacon, steering you clear of the rocks.

I loved you.

Yours, for always now.

Quinn