Atonement

Atonement

    凌晨，我看了这部Atonement.
    极度压抑、缓慢，但总有某种沉寂下的疯狂张力让我觉得欲罢不能。
    这里有法国、敦刻尔克的冗长可怕的战争片段，也有席卷着热浪而来的绝美庄园，还有Cicelia亲吻封函，将情书投进的红色邮筒……我想，这里表达的意义远超过战争、爱情、偏见、种族、嫉妒和岁月中的任一种：比如无知中的深不可测、纯净下的丑陋人性、华丽后的肮脏世俗。想想，它想表达那么多，也仅仅就是atonement。
      电影和生活中的每一个人，谁不是带着灵魂深处的善与恶，罪与愧，参悟修行。
      
那美得发颤的女主说
Come back.
Come back with me.

那拥有俊俏脸庞的男主说
The story can resume.
I will simply resume.


最后他却只能在施罪者和赎罪者的笔下咆哮：
“How old do you have to know the difference between right and wrong?
What are you...18??
Do you have to be 18 before you can bring yourself to own up to a lie?
There are soldiers of 18, old enough to be left to die by the side out the road！
Did you know that?!”

“Five years ago, you didn't care about telling the truth.
You, all your family, you just assumed that for all my education, I was still little better than a servant. Still not to be trusted!
Thanks to you, they were able to close rank sand throw me to the fucking wolvies!”

我最讨厌的，是这段最深情和悔悟的表白：

“Ever since I've always felt I prevented.
But what sense of hope or satisfaction could a reader derive from an ending like that?
I wanted to give Robbie and Cicelia what they out on in life.
I'd like to think this isn't weakness or evasion, BUT A FINAL ACT OF KINDNESS.”

这一小段话真是让我难以忍受。
仗着上帝没把自己托成智障，去毁了别人的happiness，何谈kindness。

我最心动的，却是这段最冷血和愤怒的宣泄：
“Write it all down, just the truth, no rhymes, no embellishment, no adjectives.
And then leave us be.”
把真相原原本本地写下来，不要押韵，不要修辞，不要添油加醋。
之后就别再来烦我们。

我真的常常觉得，
“不要修辞，不要押韵，不要添油加醋”，
这是最好的赎罪，
这是最美的情话，
这是最大的善良。

在你不那么坚信的时候，不要控制。
Please， LET IT BE.
This is KINDNESS.
庄重地敬往事一杯酒，闭上眼，甩甩头。
You deserve HAPPINESS.