Howl's a cute emo boy

First watched this film when I was a kid,now rewatched this film in my twenties I realized Howl's actually a pretty teenage girl and although he's depressed sometimes he's still fucking sexy.and we all love him,you r a cute emo boy.The sad part is Howl reminds me of a boy I loved in the realtiy.it fucking hurts me somehow cause I am envy of everything he done for Sophie.the garden,the breakfast,and the ring,the promises,kisses and hugs.I want these things too.