我所不能割舍的
献给我2014-2019最爱的美剧，五季季终，the affair
（文章最后附上我的感谢词）
歌曲整理：
Ep1:①Si Do Hymn——BIET Sierra's birthday party.
② Wide——CHRISTOPHER WILLITS Sierra's birthday party.
③The Beauty of the Rain——DAR WILLIAMS Vik's funeral.
Ep2:①Flying Away——THE AFFAIR CAST
[from the musical Fun Home] Performed by cast.
Ep3:①Tougher than the Rest——THE AFFAIR CAST Karaoke performed by Sasha.
②Tougher Than the Rest——BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN [Karaoke version by Claes Banga]
③Divorce Song——THE AFFAIR CAST Karaoke performed by Helen.
④Divorce Song (Remastered)——LIZ PHAIR [Karaoke version by Maura Tierney]
⑤Listen to Her Heart——THE AFFAIR CAST Karaoke performed by Noah.
⑥Listen to Her Heart——TOM PETTY & THE HEARTBREAKERS [Karaoke version by Dominic West]
⑦I Ain't Got Nobody——BRIAN CAVANAUGH-STRONG
[Original track based on Rosemary Clooney's version] Drunk girl karaoke.
⑧Felice——ALEXANDER MCCABE Helen and Margaret have lunch.
⑨Oak——ALEXANDER MCCABE Helen and Margaret have lunch.
⑩Dream Shiver——ROADKILL GHOST CHOIR Karaoke party.
⑪Sex & Candy——MARCY PLAYGROUND Joanie at Montauk Bar.
Ep4:①Love as a Weapon——LITTLE SCREAM At Sasha's party
②1oz Lemon Juice——RÖGG COLLINS Noah schemes at Sasha's party.
③Throwing Lines——KELLY LEE OWENS Whitney at the Chateau Mormont.
④Noise——ZSELA During Joanie's scene at end of episode.
Ep5:①Dance Forever (feat. $k)——VENESSAMICHAELS Club scene with Leif and Sierra.
②Truth ——TeaZOLITA Sierra and Lief in club bathroom
③Swayin'——ALEXANDER MCCABE Helen attends Carolina's cocktail party.
④Thirty Fourth——ALEXANDER MCCABE Helen attends Carolina's cocktail party.
Ep6:no songs
Ep7:①Walking With a Stranger——CHRIS STAPLES
Noah and Whitney take a taxi to the Butler's mansion in Montauk; (repeats) Noah is alone in a taxi.
②The Whole of the Moon——THE WATERBOYS
While driving, Noah and Whitney try to remember the words to this song, which Helen liked.
Ep8:①Another Treatment——MATHIAS LANDEAUS Noah meets his lawyer in NYC.
②Golden Lady——ROGUE + JAYE
Noah arrives as Helen celebrates her birthday with her kids (Noah's side).
Ep9:①Season in Hell——DUM DUM GIRLS Helen drives past L.A. canyon fire with her kids.
Ep10：①Runaway——THE NATIONAL
Helen is stuck in a traffic jam as canyon residents attempt to flee the oncoming fire.
②Close My Eyes——REDDING HUNTER Noah sits beside Helen in the hospital.
Ep11:①The Whole of the Moon——THE WATERBOYS
The family rehearsing a choreography; again at wedding when they perform; later as Noah sees the video.
②Which Way Your Heart Will Go——MASON JENNINGS Helen walking Whitney down the aisle
③Cursive Prayers——MASON JENNINGS
Band at the wedding, Helen discussing the Lobster Roll with Leif
④Race You To The Light——MASON JENNINGS
Colin and his mom dancing: Helen sends her eldest to dance with Whitney and runs off to Noah
⑤Fire——OFTEN
Martin tells Whitney that Noah is at Montauk motel while they are dancing at the reception.
⑥She Will Have Her Way——NEIL FINN
The Solloways run to surprise their dad and find him in bed with mom
⑦The Whole of the Moon——FIONA APPLE
Elderly Noah dances on a Montauk cliff to the music in his head.
All those songs come from tunefind.
看美剧无数，非常偶然浏览到这部美剧，当时第一季刚更新完，我不抱什么希望的看完第一季，却从此走上了漫长的等待路，直到今天全季结束，我对这部作品演员、编剧所有成就了这部作品的人都充满了尊敬。
在我心中超越了老友记，超越超感八人组的存在，我愿意一遍一遍的去刷他，在我心里让台词留下痕迹。
这部作品独特的视角，被一些人诟病，但是这确实最现实的存在，这也是我思考过无数遍的一个问题——人们只愿意（或者说只能）看到自己想看到的东西。所有的社会事件爆发，我们往往只能就媒体所引导我们的一个角度进行思考和评判，如果我们不是当事人，我们永远无法知道一件事情发展的全部。而导演在这部作品中，大胆的从每一个眼中看事情的发生，并且细节到发丝，当事人对于同一件事情往往也会有记忆偏差。和世界上，网络上，我们能接触到的事情一样，我们只能从这些当事人嘴中零碎的部分自己拼凑出一个有缝隙的全局，这是这部作品的世界观我最喜欢的部分。
另外，所有的人都在受到原生家庭的伤害，同时，所有的人也都在努力的保护和治愈自己。人都是在永恒的痛苦中短暂的快乐，剧中或许放大了我们所面临的痛苦，但是，这些痛苦都是我们所有人真是面临的东西。
最后，结局变得不重要了，重要的是我和这部剧一起走过的五季的过程和这部作品所讨论的更深层次的东西。
非常感谢奉献这部剧给我们的所有人。
总有一天我会去Montauk住半个月，住在离有灯塔的沙滩很近的地方，天气晴朗的时候我会去灯塔里的小博物馆，天气阴冷的时候我也要在沙滩漫步。
