1.SHE is a drama queen.我曾经觉得Hannah是那种外向型的girl，她会给Clay起外号，与
她对Clay和Zach说get the fuck out of here，同时希望他们留下，这样的矛盾情绪大多数人都会有，但是一样的，当你听到别人对你说fuck off的时候，你有什么理由留下？作为被驱赶的一方，怎样才知道对方是外强中干的矛盾心理，还是彻底的厌恶才叫你滚？或者说，同样是被喊了fuck off，如果Zach和Clay分别强行留下，Hannah又是否会接受他们的好意？我觉得并不一定，因为一个是预设的备胎，一个是平时陌路的人。how can you blame him?如果Zach是一个理由，那Hannah自身难道不是吗？她也应该出现在tape里面吧？可是我这是上帝视角的逻辑，一个要自杀的人，怎么会这么想？所以，这也是片子看的郁闷的一大理由，因为我知道要自杀的人会怎么想，以及事情明明可以有更光明的想法的……
2.Clay所追求的正义，真的是正义吗？他在听tape的时候，不断的以他认为正确的方式去伸张他的justice，really for Hannah？or for himself？而我不得不问自己，他这些举动，真的是“正确的”吗？也许真相需要公开，但是他并没有了解到自己看到的“真相”并不一定是故事的全部，这点，似乎在片子里面也不断在提醒大家，我们每个人看到的，其实都很主观。eg，Hannah以为那天party时候觉得Clay很轻松，可是Clay自己却知道他紧张到爆炸。同样，Hannah在blame herself的时候，想要告诉Clay关于Jeff死亡的一些隐情的时候，Clay也主观的认为她和Jeff并不熟，那副要哭出来的表情不过是装的。每个人都是主观的，每个人都有误会别人的时候，每个人也都有情绪悲伤的时候，但，并不是每个人都会自杀。Hannah因为悲观，觉得全世界都不理她，她是孤独的。而Clay又是否看到Sheri的内心呢？她的内疚，她不想这件事毁了她的人生，（毕竟已经有人自杀了），她仍然想阳光积极的活下去，并试图做的更好，譬如多那个老爷爷一家。而Clay那种坚持justice的方式又何尝不会毁了Sheri？还有他没有砸Tyler家的玻璃表示不满，而是发了Tyler的裸照，以暴制暴的方式，真的是justice吗？Hannah会因为霸凌而自杀，难道Clay这样对Tyler这样做的时候，不觉得T也可能会想不开自杀吗？所以他所谓的justice，是否真的那么重要？如Tony所说的，大家听了tape后，其实都背负了一些东西，都在改变一些，而Clay是否太执着于表面的真相却忽略了大家内心的变化与感受呢？这也是我唏嘘Alex和Tyler结局的一个点。因为他们两个结局，是可见的悲剧，这悲剧可以说是因果报应，也可以说是Hannah造成的，甚至Clay我觉得 也脱不了关系！
3.对于校园霸凌，一味的指责旁人没有pay attention，不如鼓励受害者说出自己的感受和遭遇。毕竟那种我叫你fuck off，但也希望你留下的矛盾心理，不是大多数人能正确get的。而且，一个有抑郁症，或者想自杀的人，她大多是时候看起来都无比“正常”（别问我为什么知道），不是pay attention就能解决的，事实上我觉得需要交往阳光的伙伴，或者正真的说出来寻求帮助。
5.放到了最后才说Courtney and Marcus，因为除了打从心底的鄙夷之外，我实在想不出别的要表达的情绪。Come on ，Courtney.你父亲是一对gay，按理应该很好理解同性文化，按理应该更容易接受同性文化，而且拜托，现在都什么年代了，你还处于认可同性恋婚姻的文化中，出柜有那么难吗？okay，出柜是个人选择问题，你可以不选择，但是为什么要为了撇开自己而去中伤Hannah？WHY？！！ What kind of person is that？Marcus也是，表面是学生会主席，而实际使用的手段确实那么卑劣，Justin会说要弄死Clay的真小人，可是Marcus确实那种笑面虎背后捅死人的伪君子。如果说片子里的每个人都是自私的，那么其他人（除了Jeff，我真的好喜欢他）的自私我相对都能理解和接受，因为每个人的情绪和判断都是主观的，性格也不一样，何况大家都是高中生。但C和M两位，我觉得是自私到极致，我不能接受。
I absolutely wanted to feel for Hannah so badly. I wanted to have sympathy for her and be on her side.Unfortunately, I never once managed to feel anything more than irritation and annoyance towards her. She is selfish, entitled and demanding. She seems to have this mentality that everyone around her should have the ability to read her mind and it frustrates me to no end. After harshly telling several people who WANT to be close to her to leave her alone, she magically expects people to simply ignore her request and continue pursuing her. I couldn't relate to her problems at all. I completely understand the underlying point regarding that part of the "hot or not" list, but I don't care. It was more a compliment and the people on the "not hot" side probably felt worse about themselves than she could imagine.
She treats Clay like absolute garbage. Clay seemed to be the one guy who would always be friendly to her no matter what. Even when the first picture went around, he didn't seem very phased by it and had she confined in him, he would have been there for her in every possible way. She pushed him away more than anyone else in the show and it irritated me more than I can say. Part of my biggest curiosity was wanting to know why Clay was on the tapes. When his episode FINALLY (that's another smaller issue I have with this show; it's extremely slow paced and I feel like you're always waiting for something to happen) comes around, you learn she once again pushed him away and got hurt that he listened to her when she told him to leave. DRAMA MUCH!? I was soooooooo irritated when that happened! HE DID NOTHING WRONG!!! He even asked her if she was okay when they were making out. And because of that she had the audacity do add him to those tapes? Even at the end when she gives it one last go with the counselor, she left the office in hopes he would follow her? Was she testing him? Hoping he could read her mind? She was even told afterward she was missed at the poetry reading; isn't that a reason alone to continue life?! Which leads me to her selfishness. How dare she leave a bunch of tapes behind to pass around to all the people who hurt her after SHE made the choice to take her own life. Granted, some people on them deserved to know what they did more than others, but still. It's cruel and unnecessary. It's almost like she wanted to condemn them for the rest of their lives for high school mistakes. No one is perfect as a teenager and she wasn't either. I mean, she watches her ex-best friend get raped and does literally nothing about it. Okay, fine, she was scared to leave the closet - but what about afterwards? She didn't confront Bryce or Justin to tell them she saw everything. She didn't tell Jessica what she saw. She didn't call the police - she did squat. What kind of person is that? The entire time I was watching this show and more reasons kept being revealed, I kept finding myself saying "that's it?" There are two other characters in this show who have it ten times worse that she does; Justin and Tyler. In fact, I felt awful for Justin and was probably the only character I teared up for at all. Hannah had loving amazing parents that she left behind; Justin has a horrible mom with an abusive step dad. Hannah had people who were interested in her and wanted to be friends whereas Tyler gets slammed against walls and told off by literally everyone on the show. Poor Hannah.
Overall, with such an unlikable main character, it makes the show very difficult to enjoy. I personally think this show is way overrated and there are people in real life that deal with much worse and don't kill themselves. In fact, Skye says it best in the show; "Suicide is for the weak." Now, I don't want anyone to think I am downgrading suicide as a real issue in anyway shape or form. It's a horrible reality many people face and it's extremely tragic. I just feel that this show almost depicts it as a solution to a problem as there are two other characters who also attempt to kill themselves (Clay and Alex). Which, I might add, are caused by the grief passed on from Hannah's tapes. Maybe she wanted a chain reaction to happen, cause that's what she got.
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