The sense of emptiness kept haunting me to the end of the documentary, with the gaiety of Same Love re-veiling the not-completely-told story. Because Tom is gone. Everyone were talking what a great person he is, what a lovely couple Shane and him were meant to be, and what a horrendous nightmare things turned out. But Tom is gone. I was fantasizing those love words Tom once whispered against Shane's ear when I heard the voice of Tom, which had been preciously and fortunately recorded as the last thing in the world through which people could feel him indirectly. He is a professional vocalist for me. I looked up several versions of Chestnuts Roasting on an Open Fire but not one of them could ever compare with his. But he is gone. A TV news Footage tells you nothing but when and where, who was dead, suicidal, homicidal or accidental. It cannot be more normal. However it's such a ruthless official obituary for those who were closely related to the deceased, especially for the one he once shared pillows with. I'm not qualified to empasize with Shane because I've never got into such a relationship. But I do wanna say to Shane, I have your back. Let me, let us be your rock. Since all that you've gone through, the hard time to make a real connection with either family and the heartbreaking shutting out by Tom's parents, I hope you could really, one day, let go all the dark and move on, carrying the memory rather than survive on them for the rest of your life. You look pretty weighed down when you stepped in front of Taj Mahal, you are unhappy. Not until Shane explained the meaning of three taps that I was slightly touched by the tap tap tap at the very beginning part of this documentary. Tap, tap, tap, I love you. Tap, tap, tap, I love you. Three taps on Tom's thigh, once more and once more, the last love I can say to you. Also at the very beginning, their favourite song, Garth Brooks' The Dance, somewhat a sad song while not that sentimental, and what a reflection of their love story. I listed below the lyrics and translated into Chinese on my own.
Looking back on the memory of The dance we shared 'neath the stars above For a moment all the world was right How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye? 我们曾在熠熠星光下起舞 我的世界一度因为你而完整 而我何尝料到有朝一日你将离我而去？
And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end, the way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could've missed the pain, but I'd have had to miss the dance 而现在我庆幸自己不知道这一切缘何而终，何去何从 我们本可以听天由命，任凭彼此人生交错，如此一生 我本可以避开一切苦痛，却始终不忍错过，与君共舞
Holding you, I held everything For a moment, wasn't I a king? But if I'd only known how the king would fall Hey, who's to say? You know I might have changed it all 拥抱着你，我彷如拥有了全世界。 你的爱叫我一度成为了王，不是么？ 可要是我当初知道这王会有那样颓丧的命运， 我怎么会说出“你知道，我能改变这一切”这样自负的话
And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end, the way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could‘ve missed the pain, but I'd have had to miss the dance 而现在我庆幸自己不知道这一切缘何而终，何去何从 我们本可以听天由命，任凭彼此人生交错，如此一生 我本可以避开一切苦痛，却始终不忍错过，与君共舞
Yes, my life is better left to chance I could’ve missed the pain, but I'd have had to miss the dance 是的，听天由命的人生多好 我本可以避开一切苦痛，却始终不忍错过，与君共舞