The relationship of Susie Lovecraft with her son was problematical at best, clearly she loved him but I think because of what had happened to her husband, Lovecraft's father who had died of syphilis. I think she developed some weird love-hate relationship with Lovecraft. She called him hideous, said to a neighbor that he had the hideous face and that's why he wouldn't go outdoors much.
Susie repeated these opinions enough times that her son actually grew to believe them insecurity mixed with classical tendencies, segregated young Lovecraft from others his age, but this solitary childhood, only kindled his imagination.
“I used to be tormented constantly with a peculiar type of recurrent nightmare, in which a monstrous race of entities, called by me ‘Night-Gaunts’. Usedtosnatch me up by the stomach, they carried me up through infinite leagues of black air over the towers of dead and horrible cities with vast aggregations of night-black masonry embodying monstrous perversions of geometrical laws. ”
Edgar Allan Poe
He almost never has a good thing to say about his own work, this may be a kind of version of what the perceived as “good manners”. Because there’s no doubt that he would have though, It’s very ill-mannered to praise his own work.
1913—1914： He basically rotting away, he clearly don’t know what to do with himself.
1919 his own magazine : The Conservative（保守派）（pronouncedxenophobia）仇外情绪
1919 ：The Vagrant（漂泊者） Dagon《达贡》
It’s a style that incredibly anal retentive 肛门滞留型人格
As an invisible author, Lovecraft would be published many times between 1919 and 1920.
By 1921 he had written close to 17 stories.
In March 1923, “Weird Tales” magazine was born.
Between 1922 and 1924, Lovecraft’s narrative aplord was another upswing.
I don't think you can ever curly what people think or believe based on one person's work.
or at least I don't think you can do it on the one to one basis so beloved of literary scholars academics and amateur psychologists.
it's very very easy to look at Lovecraft and go, you know "Cthulhu means the female genitalia or all of these outsiders were really Jews or blacks. or you know, this is what the batrachian thing（蛙人） is all about, t's a cunningly disguised racism.
In April of 1942, Lovecraft returned to his beloved city.（Providence）
That summer of 1926 was the start of Lovecraft’s riches period.
so finally in a letter in1934, he tells acolleague, well, it’s really meant to be two syllables.
you are supposed to put your tongue at the roofof your mouth and cough it out like “Clu-lu”.
In February 1928’s issue of “Weird Tales”. Lovecraft’s fee for such a seminal work of fiction, 165 dollars.
Every creator that dwells in the genre, must assume， his work will not be appreciated as if he was doing "straight" stuff.
I know every religion begins as the delusion of one or two people and once enough people sign on, it's become the world view and as if you can inhabit in it.